Feeling very distracted since last night and this is not a good sign, especially since I planned to complete my 1500 work essay for school tomorrow and require evey ounce of focus I have. Whats on my mind? Fei is on my mind. I have been thinking of Fei since last night and cant get my mind off him. All the wonderful memories we had together keep flooding into my mind. What triggered this off? This.... (taken from Jenny's blog)

Went for Fei's wake last night...

Since I heard the news that he left us for good, I couldn't bring myself to cry. I was too shocked. It was just too sudden and the news came abrupt. Yet, when I attended the wake... I was overwhelmed by sadness and grief, couldn't stop crying and sobbing throughout the service..

Since February when he was diagnosed with Leukemia, I made a point to sms him at least once a week, encouraging him to hang on and that The Lord will always be there for him. He always made a point to reply and I really appreciate it... even though it was just a simple "Thanks Jen and God Bless."

When I visited him in hospital back in February, he was still the same old Kang Fei that I knew 2 yrs back: always chirpy as ever. Never would anyone noticed that he was ill..

I never knew that he was sick.... Ok... ignore the change in fonts I dunno how to change it back... I never knew that Fei was sick. I hope his family is handling this well, or as well as they can. This just adds another person to my list on friendster who will no longer be around. I will not delete him from my list as he will forever be my friend. I miss Fadly too.

Lemme blog before I go and do my homework. This week, I have been a relatively good girl. Wait a minute, I AM a GOOD GIRL.

Lets see. Yesterday! Elaine got married to Farn Ho at Sentosa. She looked so gorgeous. I was so happy for her and while she was saying her oath to Farn Ho, she busts out in tears. But she being the workaholic that she is, she is going to be back at work on Monday. After Elaine's wedding, we went to church so that mom could settle some stuff. She said it would be for a short while, but mom's rubber timing caused my sis and I to wait for her for more than an hour. So on the way to beach road where mom was going to take the coach to KL, she and sis were arguing yet again... After dropping mom, sis and I went home. I did some work and had my dinner, stoned a little and left the house.

This is where the fun begins:

Went down to Hideout with Chin, initially, I was going coz I had wanted to check the place out since Chin told me about it and than, a friend of mine asked me to go there too... His friend was spinning that night and invited me, so I decided to ask Chin along. I found out what time Neil was going, coz I was to meet him and then planned from there.

The theme was back to school and Chin and I decided not to go in uniform as I could not find mine and she was just too lazy to carry a big bag in case she wanted to change. Entering the door, we were greeted by Belinda... and she told us that since we were not dressed according to the theme, we could choose to pay $10 entrance fee or get spanked and photographed. No doubt we chose....... to pay.... but on hind sight, we should have been spanked.

Freddie was spinning already and the music was good. Chin and I took to the floor and it would have been fun if the ventilation was better... Neil came later and we spoke for a while. Chin and I decided that we would be going back to hideout soon.. haahaa... Bumped into Mark there and later Jason came by, just in time to hear Chin say: Lets go... go to coco latte. We left shortly after that.

Coco Latte: We got in for free coz Chin's friend, Ash was there. Chin and I had our drinks and got nice and very high and went dancing. We now have a one less "I have never..." haahaa.. but it was really fun.. Poor J and Dan. On the way out of Coco Latte, Chin's heel broke and that was a joke. We both were very amusing that evening.

Chin wanted sheesha after and we headed to Arab street and coz I was still high and silly, I was not allowed to sheesha...bleh...

We all reached home at 6 plus, and crashed shortly after.

Woke up this afternoon at 2 plus and rushed down for training which was at 3. Needless to say, I was late and felt really bad. Oh ya, we have a performance this coming sat for some Y-prom thing at somerset mrt.

After training was late lunch and a bit of walking around... nice to spend time on your own.

Let me give you a hint where I am at the moment. The location begins with S and ends with L and in the middle bit there are a couple of Os and there is a H somewhere and not to forget a C. Do you see where I am coming from? Ok. Excuse me for my wonderful crappiness. You have to understand I am currently living through my 4 hour free period only to stay back for 3 hours of IT lesson. I think we are learning how to use Word... WhOA!!! amazing right? On my first week of school, I learnt to turn on the computer and how to create a new folder within a new folder... and OH...OH not to forget..... how to rename the folder that we just created. I am now confident that I know how to close a window that I have opened and not to mention, I DO know how to shut down a computer too...  Last week. we learnt that the CPU is an input and a printer is an output. Damn interesting lor. Fuck lah... This is what I have to wait 4 hours for. What would I prefer to do? I would prefer to go home and sleep. Thats what I'd love to do actually considering that the weather is so good. Cloudy and cool. Perfect.

I am only running on 2 hours of sleep. Dun ask why.... Ok fine... I spent last night watching 'Orgasmo' again... Yes... I watched 'Orgasmo' for the third time... It is a classic stupid show. Hahaa... Bleh... Ok my body energy battery is running out... I think I will do myself a favour and sleep in IT class.

Have a performance coming up on the 18th of this month at somerset mrt. you should see my top... or what they call a top. It is a freaking small piece of cloth that is maybe no bigger than an A4 paper. I showed it to Drew last night and he said it was 'nice' haahaa... But what did I expect to hear?

Le, when are you coming back again? I miss you! Guess what? The world is so bloody small, I met this guys called Max last night. He happens to be my neighbour. He stays at 55 Oriole Crescent. Damn small world right? he had been living there like forever.. haahaa... he is an even closer neighbour to me than you are.. haahaa... and he remembers that he had seen an SC girl walking with a guy who looked like he was from RI or SJI.. haahaa it is the all white uniform... but Sam was in Gan Eng Seng... but yup, he has seen us around... but the blur shit that I am, cannot remember a single thing... haahaa.. typical right? Considering that I cannot remember even studying in Pri school, I only remember climbing my house roof... remember? Haahaaa... Memories... When you come back, lets play barbie. I want the one I always choose... haahaa...Missing you... oh ya, forget about Matt... he is a jerk.. he cannot choose to have the best of both worlds... how can he keep a gf in Singapore and want to have you in Shanghai? just tell him to Fuck off alright? I know that you really like him, but he is really not worth it. You will only be labelled as a third party and thats fucked up. Hey babe.... you deserve better... Why do you always fall for the bloody jerks? You need to pull yourself together....